Thomas J. Nolan III, PhD

Norman, Oklahoma



January 1, 2002                                                                                                                            No. 3, Vol. 1



What is the Basis for having two different world views?

How the Civilized World Operates

Living Within the Life Matrix

Living in the Here and Now

Strategies For Living Within the Life Matrix



Practice & Transformation:

Indigenous or Aboriginal Cultural References:



Mythology, Health, & Others:





Listen my friends and have great cheer,
Another New Year, again is here.

Let us look at the past to see how we fared
and look at the growth we’ve dared.


As I review this year, as well as, the year 2000
we experienced many changes and challenges, too.

So, how did we fare, what did we learn,
how did we grow, what did we do?


First, there are the things that happened to me;
next the things that happened to those around me.

And finally, those events that occurred in the world,
that have changed life forever more, you see.


I, in the year 2000, was diagnosed with prostate cancer;
I received the news in total shock, with total disbelief.

No way, I cried that this could happen to me,
and so, to make sure it did take hold, I sought relief.


Two very important decisions I made to make me clear.
One, made changes in the way I viewed myself with respect to my past.

And sought release by roto-rootering out blocks that
for years had filled with me with emotional wastes that were vast.


Two months long I worked, to clear old paths and new,
I worked hard day and night, and early morning too.

Over and over old relationships I passed, clearing blocks, clearing waste,
and clearing pain locked into view.


And two, I discovered the gracious Dr. Dashima,
who helped me for the duration of the treatment arena.

She further helped deal with all my side effects,
and the root causes that made my body a wreck.


So, nine months of hormone prevention, twenty-five
days of radiation, then placement of the seeds,

causing hot flashes, emotional swings, and weight gains.

My empathy for female emotions has grown indeed.


So, now six months later, I am clear of the problem,
hot flashes, emotional swings, weight gains and all.

My life has now been made anew, a better connection with life,
relationships, and All That Is”, is now my call.


Many of my relations have gone to the next world,
and those left behind have sought new connections.

It’s my task to help those who seek new understandings,
dealing with life’s issues, blocks, and other convections.


New understandings that Masters have long portrayed
live in the here and now; without being dismayed.

It’s the most powerful, simple, yet, difficult thing to do,

I’m sure once you experience it, you’ll think so too.


So, embrace the “Warrior’s Mantle” i.e., self-awareness,
service to your inner master, and death as your advisor.

Expect nothing; be prepared for everything becomes your mantra,
your guide, and your life’s visor.


Then, look at the plight of our country, locked in war, in fury, all tied up in emotional stress.
Let us beware less we get caught in a whirlwind of duress.

Take control of our lives and control of our prospective;

And thus, become free, remain whole, and therefore dictate our own directives.


Long we’ve been controlled by inner and outer skirmishes,
pushed this way and that way against our will.

It’s time to let go, then push forward to our destiny,
so on to enlightenment, love, the next level and make it real.




Happy New Year!!!  This year’s newsletter will follow-up last year’s.  I’m continuing to develop a workable lifestyle for myself, as well as others who have similar ideas.  This lifestyle is based on the concept of creating and maintaining balance in our lives.  It divides the concept of balance into three main areas that prevent us from creating and maintaining balance:  (1) Win-Lose, (2) Artificial Goals, and (3) Emotional Attachments.

Life presents us with many opportunities to develop, grow, and evolve as we accomplish goals and overcome obstacles.  How we confront these goals and obstacles has a lot to do with the pain or pleasure we experience in our lives.  According to Vroom’s Expectancy Theory of Motivation, we are constantly seeking those things that cause us pleasure and at the same time constantly avoiding those things that cause us pain.  Therefore, all of our actions are governed by these two directive concepts.

Then, seeking pleasure and avoiding pain greatly affects how we approach the win-lose game, accomplish goals, and create emotional attachment.  We have been trained both formally and informally by our interaction with our parents, religious institutions, schools, and communities.  As a result, we choose specific strategies that will help us maximize pleasure and minimize pain.  These strategies become an integral part of our survival mechanisms.  These mechanisms for the most part involve the utilization of the thinking process and external stimuli for answers.

Herein lies the big problem of living life.  The use of the thinking process and external stimulus is not bad, in itself.  It is, however, by nature unbalanced.  Most of what we have been taught minimizes the use of inner world processes since it involves feeling, intuition, or emotions.  Feelings and intuition are considered to be unreliable and emotions entrap us.  Therefore, we have been taught to avoid these processes.


The use of the thinking process and external stimulus became the preferred mode of operating because we seek to exploit, dominate, and control our environment.  Thus, separating us from our environment.  In order to understand why we use this method, we must go to its source, that is, how this way of approaching life came about.

There are at least two living systems of humans on this planet.  The first system is millions of years old and follows the natural evolution patterns of the earth.  That is, the earth is a natural system where everything grows and evolves in-sync with the earth’s growth and development.  The second system is approximately six to ten thousand years old.  It works for the good of itself and for the most part works against and seeks to conquer the natural system of the planet.

Six to ten thousand years ago, a group of humans, let’s call them the Civilized Matrix decided to change their destiny.  Whether or not they made this decision was made on their own or with the help of some outside agency or both is unknown.  Their decision, however, did change the course of human history. 

When humans decided to leave the living system of the planet or Life Matrix, their decisions seem to have little or no effect on the Life Matrix.  However, after 6000 or more years they have taken over most of the landmass of this planet and have become a severe threat to the planet’s ecosystem.  Their spread might be compared to the introduction of Kudzu plant from Japan to control weeds along the right of way of highways of southeastern United States.  The Kudzu plant had no natural enemies and therefore grew unchecked, prolifically creating a carpet, covering anything in its way: trees, bushes, plants, grass, etc.  It choked to death all living things in its path and began to encroach on farmland areas.  It was destroyed in time before it took over the entire ecosystem.

This group of humans of the Civilized Matrix is about to take over the entire planet’s resources in order to support its own survival.  Humans of the Civilized Matrix represent 1/4 of population of this planet use 3/4 of its resources.  One person in the Civilized Matrix may use as much resources as one family in third world countries.  More complete descriptions of this take over can be found in both fiction and non-fiction works, such as, Ishmael by Daniel O’Quinn; Earthdance: Living Systems in Evolution by Elisabet Sahtouris; and The Passion of the Western Mind by Richard Tarnas.  All three books each using a different approach describes processes where humans of the Civilized Matrix have just about taken over the ecosystem of the planet.


What is the Basis for having two different world views?

There are many ideas about how the world got started, including my own.  One of the better discussions on this topic is from the book, Conversations with God, Book 1, by Neal Donald Walsch.  His view supports my own work written as I sought to combine the Biomedical Model with the Holistic Model of Health.  Since it seems that we are on the same page, I prefer using his description of how or why God created the universe.  The following is a paraphrased description from Book 1.

And God knew everything that was, as well as, everything that wasn’t.  However, God did not know experience.  So, God operated on itself and split into two parts, (1) that which is based on fear, and (2) that which is based on love.

Fear is defined as being separate from God; While Love is defined as being connected with God.  Now, as fear interacts with itself and as love interacts with itself and, as love and fear interacts with each other, God created experience.

The universe then, is the result of the constant interaction in and between these two principles: the principle of separation, Fear and the principle of connection, love.  Thus the two worldviews, the civilized world and the Life Matrix can now be described in terms of their origins, fear and love, respectively.


How the Civilized World Operates

We have just described the Civilized Worldview in terms of separation or fear.  Some of you may want to contest this description as untrue, however, look underneath what we say, advocate or look at how we act or operate in the world in the past, as well as, the present.  I’ll use the United States as an example, since we are supposed to be the “light of the world” so to speak.  This country was founded on the principle that all men are created equal, yet this view did not include the Native People, Africans, Asians, or women.  And, although there have been great strides and improvements the separateness is still there.

Look at how we judge, blame, use guilt or shame to get people to do what we want them to do.  Look at politics, past and present, how we seek to dominate each other.  Look at how we use sports, where there can only be one winner, and those who can win the “Big One” are considered to be losers.  Look at the constant growing gap between the rich and the poor, and on, and on, and on.

This description does not reject the notion that there are good people in the Civilized Matrix, humans who are trying to live by a higher standard.  However, we operate at times out of fear, and as a result set others and ourselves up for failure.  The Civilized Matrix worldview is deeply imbed within us, such that most of its workings that limit or block us, is unconscious.

Thus, living outside the life matrix is by definition, a state of being out of balance.  In order to create a new balance and thus feel good about ourselves, we have created a new system.  We use three mechanisms to create this new system.  They are:

(1)             Win-Lose

(2)             Artificial Goals

(3)             Emotional Attachments


In order to play the win-lose game, if a player wins, some one has to lose.  This is one of the most important traits of the win-lose paradigm.  In order for one player to win, the other person must lose.  In addition, if the player really wants to win, then he or she must be willing to do whatever it takes to win.  Therefore, if a player wants to influence his or her ability to win, then he or she has to employ strategies that will guarantee the win, including exploitation, domination, or control of their opponents. 

Look at how we interact with each other in relationships, at work, political areas, and even the games we play.  We believe our view of the world is the correct one and if another view is different, it must be wrong.  We play to win, however, in the win-lose game; we must remember that the only way we can win is for someone else to lose.  As a result, we must everything around us as fodder for us to do as we please.

Artificial Goals

Goals represent the things we want or need in life.  However, much of what we want is usually adopted from those things or quests deemed important by the Civilized Matrix.  Therefore, it is difficult to be happy from our own pursuits unless we are able to develop enough personal power to impose our own needs.  If we do not make the goals imposed by the civilized world, we are deemed failures.  If we succeed, it comes at the expense of the goals of their opponents or other players.

We are constantly bombarded with advertisements that tell us in effect that we are not okay.  We need this lotion, this toothpaste, which set of clothes or this car to be happy.  We suffer from a disease Wayne Dyer calls, More.  The more we get the more we want.  As soon as we buy something, within a few months it’s obsolete, the computer industry is the best modern example of this problem.

Emotional Attachments

As we seek to accomplish our goals, personal (self-limiting factors) and world (environmental) blocks occur that can prevent us from reaching our goals.  These blocks can cause us to get stuck in the emotions created by our inability to prevent or remove the blocks.  Attachments are created when we become trapped in these emotions or by binding ourselves to people who we think can get us things we can’t get for ourselves.  Multitudes of attachments create emotional pools of energy that drain their ability to function at any time.

Thus, our lives are filled with emotion responses to the events we experience.  Our ability to respond appropriately to any situation is dependent on the level of emotion we are experiencing at any time.  Our responses may be rated in terms of a scale ranging from 0 to 10, where (10) represents total freedom, (5 - 7) an average response, and (0) totally trapped by emotions.  If we use the emotional pool of energy analogy, (10) represent a dry bed, (5 - 7) the water is around the waist, and (0) the water is way over our head.

For most of us, the water level is around the waist, where we need only one or two things to go wrong before we approach the edge.  At this level, life is like a roller coaster, and as a result, we have allergies, we get the flu, have accidents, etc.


Living Within the Life Matrix

Living within the Life Matrix is by definition, a life of connection.  For instance, “uncivilized people,” are called savage or animal-like.  If you will, observe the animal world.  Is it cruel, viscous, or savage?  There are many TV programs, such as, Wild Kingdom and others like it that portray animals in the wild.  Many of us are held in awe at the powerful interactions, as the crocodile captures the wildebeest, the lion catches the zebra, or the leopard seizes the antelope.  We think about the poor wildebeest, and the viscous crocodile.

Does, then, the crocodile hunt the wildebeest for pleasure; does the lion catch the zebra and mount it as a trophy; does the leopard seize the antelope to satisfy its ego.  Or do they all just hunt for food to live, grow, and survive.  So, I ask, who is the savage?  Viscous?  Cruel?

Living within the Life Matrix does not automatically mean that all our problems are solved or guarantee we will be successful in life.  There are just as many problems, pitfalls, or barriers to overcome.  We succeed or fail in our endeavors or life just as in the civilized world.  Everything on this earth must have nutrients, (i.e., air, water, and food), just as you and I do.  We all are seeking to live: to thrive, grow, and develop.  To me, this is the purpose of living, to thrive, grow, and develop. 

Life is interactive and hierarchical, that is, as one hunts, he or she is also the hunted.  We are apparently at the top of the food chain and have fewer natural enemies.  As such we have a responsibility to observe how other humans and other life forms at or near the top interact with their environment.

The difference between living within the matrix and outside of it is, that within the matrix:

(1)        There is a dynamic and ecological balance or equilibrium among and between all things, living and mineral.

(2)        You only take what you need at the time, and do not seek to exploit, dominate, or control another species.

(3)        You do not keep another species from getting food

(4)        Therefore, you do not hunt another species, living or non-living to extinction

(5)        When a species thrives, has little or no natural enemies, and has more food than it needs, it overpopulates the area (look to the example of the Kudzu plant in the introductory page of this newsletter).  Thus, it becomes out of balance.

(6)        You recognize the consciousness of all things and how you fit within that conscious field.

(7)        You are guided from within rather than without.  As a result, you become aware of your connection with yourself, your environment, and more importantly with God.


Within the Life Matrix, win-lose changes automatically to win-win.  To play win-win, you must realize every species has a right to be the best it can be.  You might say that it’s like expanding the constitution of the United States to include all things, big and small, living, and non-living.  It amazes me when athletes report after winning a big sports event that God was on their side; that God helped them to win.  I wonder what about their opponent?  Was God not helping them?  Did God work against them?  After the game, players from both sides pray together, does that mean that God favors on player or side over another.  It doesn’t make sense to me. 

We need to realize that everything survives by something else within it environment.  Think about it, we are the result of everything we have eaten.  Within the Life Matrix, immortality is possible because everything exists as function of everything else.  Therefore, we must take care, not to abuse this cycle, else we might destroy the whole thing.


In the Civilized Matrix, an entity gets what it wants by controlling its inhabitants.  It therefore attempts to dictate how we live, grow, and develop for its good, not necessarily yours or mine and anyone or thing in particular.  Artificial goals are pursuits then that are adopted from those deemed worthy by the Civilized Matrix.

Within the Life Matrix, goals are primarily driven by an individual’s inner reference.  Since this inner reference is based on consciousness and the consciousness of all things are inner-connected, then there is a built-in win-win situation with all things.  By pursuing the goals based on this reference, individuals will optimize their ability to achieve their goals in harmony with the Life Matrix and everything with it.


A defining expression about feelings is as follows:

“All emotions are feelings, but all feeling are not emotions.”

The ramifications of this statement distinguish the difference between emotions within the Life Matrix and the Civilized World.  In the Civilized World there is little or no distinction between emotions and feelings.  However, within the Life Matrix, emotions are only a subset of feelings.  In the first newsletter, we redefined thinking, feelings, and emotions.  I shall repeat those definitions here.  They are as follows:

  1. Thoughts may be defined as conscious-based interaction with the inner and outer world.  They are based on external references or models of reality programmed into our subconscious by the many tribes we belong to.  Practically all of this programming is unconscious.  “Thoughts”, therefore are random or stimulated by activating anchors to any of the myriad of programs within our subconscious.
  2. Feelings may be defined an internal reference experienced through a vast network of energy fields.  This field of energy represents the connection between the physical universe and our inner and higher consciousness.  Inner consciousness is defined as our inner core of being that controls our existence in the physical universe.  Higher consciousness is defined as our highest core of being that represents our connection with the “ALL THAT IS”.  Feelings are pure in that they measure all interactions without being corrupted by them.

3.     Emotions may be defined as responses to inner and outer world perceptions.  Whereas, feelings are based on connections, emotions are based on attachments.  These attachments can be good or bad, depending on the perception of the individual.  Attachments form fields of energy that trap us like quicksand, the more we struggle with them, the more we get caught up within them.

The important relationship between emotions and feelings is that emotions represent some type of blockage to the deeper levels of feelings that must be overcome.  This blockage may be internal or external in origins.  Nonetheless, the blockage must be overcome in order for the individual to enter into the feelings realm.  Several exercises are available that will help you to overcome blockages.  A list of exercises and further development of the Feelings State is available upon request.

Living in the Here and Now

One of the actions that creates and sustain the emotional pool of energy is our ability to live in the past or the future.  Living in the past or future keeps us from dealing with the present moment, consuming energy, depleting our energy supply.  Living in the past is useless since those events have already happened and there’s nothing we can do about it.  Further, living in the past causes us to relive stressful events and when we do, our bodies go through the same changes it went through in the original events.  Thereby, causing extra wear and tear on the body.  It creates the ability to die a thousand times due to one event.  In other words, it doesn’t do us any good.

Living in the future creates a different set of conditions.  For instance, we have little or no control of future events.  There are just too many variables to control.  We forecast outcomes in the form of internal dialogues.  These outcomes are usually worse case scenarios but how many times do these outcomes happen as we imagine them to be?  Since we live these outcomes in our mind over and over again, we forget that they are imagined and act sometimes as though they really happen that way.  All of these actions create more stress.  Stress that is base on our imagination.

The way out of these patterns of behavior is to let go of the past and stop creating futures over which we have no control.  We must live in the now, the present.  The present is the only place that is real.  By living in the present, we are able to create and maintain harmony, balance, and peace.  It's a good place to live.

Strategies For Living Within the Life Matrix

What do you want most in life?  Money?  Relationships? Happiness?  The next question to ask is, “Can you get what you want and maintain it by living in the Civilized World?  If you want to get and maintain these things by living in the Civilized World, that is, by its rules, then more power to you and good luck.  If, on the other hand, you realize that you can’t live that way, then, there are alternatives.

When I ask the question of myself, “What do I want in life?  Several things come to mind; I want

1.        To be one with God, consciously

2.        Peace, health, and prosperity, as well as, maintain a dynamic and ecological balance with myself and all things

3.        To grow and evolve to higher levels of consciousness

4.        Let go of limiting thoughts, behaviors, and emotions

5.        To have and maintain healthy relationships

6.        To have be a part of a community that a dynamic and ecological balance with the universe.

7.        To help others find their way and be of service to the universe.



Love and Light,


Thomas III




The following books and tapes are recommended as a reference reading list.


Daniel Quinn

Ishmael (Book & Tape)

Story of B (Book & Tape)

My Ishmael (Book)

Caroline Myss

Energy Anatomy (Tape)

Anatomy of an Illness (Book)

Robert Persig

Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance (Book & Tape)

Lila (Book & Tape)

Eckhart Tolle

The Power of Now (Book and Tape)

The Realization of Being (Tape)

Practicing the Power of Now (Book and Tape)

Neal Donald Walsch

Conversations with God (Book I, II, & III)


Practice & Transformation:

Erroll J. Bailey

Mr. Dream Merchant

Carlos Castaneda

Journey To Ixtlan:  The Lessons Of Don Juan

The Art of Dreaming

Richard Hittleman

28-Day Yoga Exercise Plan

James Redfield

The Celestine Prophecy (Book & Tape)

The Tenth Insight (Book & Tape)



Indigenous or Aboriginal Cultural References:

Robyn Davidson


Marlo Morgan

Mutant Message Downunder

Message From Forever

Malidoma Patrice Some’

Ritual:  Power, Healing, and Community (Book)

Of Water and the Spirit (Book & Tape)



Eugen Herrigel

Zen and The Art of Archery (Book & Tape)

Christopher S. Kilham

The Five Tibetans

Chogyam Trungpa

Shambhala:  The Path of the Warrior (Book)

Veron Kitabu Turner

Soul Sword




Rabbi David A. Cooper

The Mystical Kabbalah (Tape)

Jessie K. Crum

The Art of Inner Listening (Book)

Jack Kornfield

The Inner Art of Meditation

Shunryu Suzuki-Rosbi

Zen Mind, Beginner’s Mind (Book & Tape)



Mythology, Health, & Others:

Richards Behrens

The Lost Scrolls of King Solomon

Joseph Campbell

The Power of Myth and many other Books and Tapes

Deepak Chopra (Books & Tapes)

Ageless Body, Timeless Mind
Magical Mind, Magical Body

The Way of the Wizard

The New Physics of Healing